It seems hollow to rattle on about weddings and Christmas and whatever else maybe on my mind when there are families preparing to bury their 6 year olds today. I can't wrap my mind around it....it shakes me to the core and alters my state of reality in a way that is unexplainable. I look at my babies and hold them a little tighter...wishing that I could permanently tether them to me so as to prevent a splinter let alone a tragedy! I know common sense tells me that I can't prevent everything that could and may happen and at some point you have to let go as it is no life for you or them. But it is so hard! So hard.....

I have always been of the mindset to live in my own corner of the world, off the land, and probably churning my own butter (it's true...not brought on by this tragedy)....and my first thoughts are that homeschooling is the only option. This does not help those irrational thoughts. Pretty sure I may end up killing my own child if I choose that option....and well what would be the point then?! You can't live in fear of the "what if" because then you are not living and aren't allowing your child to live. It is soo easy to slip into that mindset though.

I know that God is mourning along with those parents...I know that his heart is saddened by this tragedy as our is, I know one day they will be reunited with their babies in eternity, I know it is little consolation at this time.

Our heart and thoughts are with you....